"As for me, I am poor and needy,
but the Lord takes thought for me."
I remember the exact moment I first heard about the concept of suicide. A young woman in our town had committed suicide and I overheard my parents talking about it at the kitchen table. At the tender age of 6, I was horrified at the thought of taking your own life and remember thinking, "no matter how bad things get, I would never consider that."
Now I'm 40. I've still never contemplated suicide, but I have experienced much of life's pain. There have been dark moments (and even lengthy seasons) where I've longed for Christ's return and even longed that he would end my life. Such moments are miserable, consuming, seemingly hopeless.
But it is also in such moments that verses like Psalm 40:17 shine as a bright light. No matter how tumultuous my sea becomes, no matter how dark my surroundings may be, I know the Lord is thinking of me. The Triune God is discussing me and my situation at the Throne. He knows my name (Is 43:1; John 10:3, 14). Even in my misery and my sin, I who am worth nothing am nevertheless important to the King.
If you are in Christ, know that in your darkest moments your Father is thinking about you. He cares. All is not hopeless, because your Father has not abandoned you.